So, tell me something about yourself..

au•ton•o•mous : ...well, i like slow music and vibrant paintings
HIM: lol
au•ton•o•mous : moving backwards in a sea of everyone moving foward
au•ton•o•mous : cant be engulfed in the bullshit that life throws at you
au•ton•o•mous : so i find solice in being alone
au•ton•o•mous : many friends = many issues.
au•ton•o•mous : unnecessary
au•ton•o•mous : but i digress
au•ton•o•mous : whatre you doing
HIM: talking to u pa
au•ton•o•mous : oh okay
HIM: so whats ur favorite part on a males body that u just love
au•ton•o•mous : well let me know if i got to far of in left feild
au•ton•o•mous : fav part
au•ton•o•mous : that i just love.
au•ton•o•mous : in thE males physical body?
au•ton•o•mous : or the male overall
HIM: ummm both
au•ton•o•mous : well the male body physically...
au•ton•o•mous : id have to say ...
au•ton•o•mous : that i cannot say
au•ton•o•mous : theres not a one location on a males physical body
au•ton•o•mous : that i can claim as my favorite
au•ton•o•mous : the males physical body in itself is a blessing to me
au•ton•o•mous : something to be cherished.
au•ton•o•mous : much like with being intimate
au•ton•o•mous : you cannot
au•ton•o•mous : well I cannot just focus on one part, the penis the ass the mouth
au•ton•o•mous : it would be like...
au•ton•o•mous : looking at a painting
au•ton•o•mous : split in half
au•ton•o•mous : how can you appreciate the piece how it was intended if you are only seing half
au•ton•o•mous : half of what the artist had in mind
au•ton•o•mous : thats the physical
au•ton•o•mous : but as far as the overall. i can say that i dont have a favorite
au•ton•o•mous : but there are certain things that i like
au•ton•o•mous : one of which being the mans capacity for love
au•ton•o•mous : a man steriotypically is afraid to show emotion
au•ton•o•mous : so when a man actually does show his feelings
au•ton•o•mous : however good or bad it is and should be memorable
au•ton•o•mous : the capasity that we have for love as an umbrella of emothioss
au•ton•o•mous : the sense of protection
au•ton•o•mous : even a quote unquote "bottom" has the sense of aggressive protection for his mate
au•ton•o•mous : and his security
au•ton•o•mous : not always looking to be taken care of , as women are[steriotypically anyways]
au•ton•o•mous : ill stop there
au•ton•o•mous : ...
HIM: wow!!
au•ton•o•mous : wow?
HIM: you can go on forever..u just bacame THAT MUCH MORE sexy to me***..I think I love ur mind., and the way u think
au•ton•o•mous : well thank you so much for listening, and posing the initial question
HIM: no problem , it's just a question
HIM: lol
au•ton•o•mous : it wasnt though...lol
au•ton•o•mous : not many ppl even care
au•ton•o•mous : nor act like they care..so
au•ton•o•mous : or if they ask its about sex
HIM: ive posed that question before to several men..and ur answer was by far the best i've ecer received

-au•ton•o•mous

Not so funny story...

This morning, while doing my usual-"massive online job search" sending out resume to job after job after job, I got one big slap across the face. It went a lil like this:

Good Morning "autonomous":
I actually have a resume writing and interview consulting service.If you would like some help with your resume, I charge $59, with half due now and half due upon completion to your satisfaction.We can meet in person or via phone to discuss what types of positions/companies you are targeting which will help to tailor your resume to attract prospective employers. I look forward to working with you.

email
phone number

&& here i thought i knew what i was doing, guess it's back to the drawing board

-au•ton•o•mous

Dating in the City: This Week

::Moment of Silence for Bernie Mac who passed this morning::

Its been a lil minute i know. I would love to give exact detail of the events thatve been going on...BUT...deaing with the University has been really really kicking my ass. When I wake up all i do is job search online and loan search online. I mean i do have the life I live in between that but thats what im focused on at the moment.

When We Last Left...

Mr. Rico did the same thing again. The no show of it all. I mean he's a really nice guy and I appreciate him. I just cannot stand the inconsistantness of it all. He did pop up later than anticipated, I let him know just like i did befor that "popping up" IS NOT the best thing to do, what if i wasnt here, or what if i was here entertaining guest. On top of all that I DONT DO POP UPS unless your being chased by some axe murderer and im the only option[or something dramatic like that] you don't just STOP BY my place. I will say that I must like him more than i thought. His visit was rather enjoyable. We had fun, did the chillin thing and that was that. All that was earlier in the week-dont ask me the specific day or detail, like I said this University drama has my days running together. One week to me is one long day.

Mr. Handsome though, we've kept in touch. talking all the time. Our conversation has grew and hit on so many different subjects. We've been throwing tips at one anther as it protains to our talents and field of interest. Even with all that I was surprised when he told me to meet him at Lennox Square one morning. I met him there and the day took off. It felt good to have someone take and do for me for a change, beneath this attitude and rough outlook on relationships lies a very emotional man. Something that I DO NOT reveal to people. We ended up at his loft over in Atlantic Station-WONDERFUL VIEW[especially at night]

Fast Foward>> Last Night id spent the day working online, doing the usual and giving myself a headache with the damn University work. I've met a few very nice older men who hold certain positions and have been really helpful. I am really appreciative, one of these mentors[thas what ill call them] offerend to come by and cook us dinner while we look over some files that were sent to me. I accepted but forgotton that I had already agreed to go to dinner with Mr. Handsome and his best friend earlier. So unforturnately I had to take a rain check.

Mr. Handsome, his friend and I headed to City Cafe' Diner for some late night food. It was the best that ive eaten in awhile. Now dont get too excited about it, that might've been simply because i haven't eaten in like four days..I KNOW I KNOW, that's not good everyone is telling me but I have other things thatre on my mind. The quesidilla that i ordered was Great, so if you get a chance to hit up City Cafe' after hours ask for Nichole, a beautiful tall dark skinned waitress who will treat you right. && please please give her a nice tip.

Mr. Handsome invitied me back to his condo to watch movies with his best friend and his date, I agreed & for whatever reason[possibly me eating more than what I shouldve] I fell asleep. I was dogg tired, had been up and going since the night before-with no rest. I woke up this morning with the Dallas Cowboys HBO show playing and saw that i was not the only one asleep. It was kind of funny, you have these four adult men laying around half asleep on this fine furniture with the light shining through the blinds laying on our bodies just so. We looked like a haute coutour concept comercial for Diesel + Bacardi lol. I saw that my phone had 12 missed calls from an Atlanta number, then I opened my text messages. I had one at 4:3something in the morning from that number, it was Mr. Rico-who was susposed to come by and spend the day with me that day but we all know how he opperates, should change his name to Mr. M.I.A. So i returned home this morning around 11:something. Got a call from Mr. Rico, he said he was in my area last night and wanted to take me to this latin club- as if we didn't already have plans...smh. Well he's susposed to be coming by today. I agreed to him coming but I really have lost my faith in his word.

So if he's truely planning on coming he should do so before something else comes up

-au•ton•o•mous

Dating in the City: did I leave anything out?

I met a nice young man sometime ago with an accent to die for, in my opinion anyways...lol. He's not from the u.s of a. but he's been here for some time. He's a very nice guy, a regular dude. A hard worker who comes from a lil bit of prestige. What's so funny is that our stories are somewhat similar: from the zodiac, to a few key struggles and personal issues[that's all ill hit on for now]. He's been a nice cool guy, in-the-know about certain things and people-other people who may be trying for my attention as well. What's interesting is that he and I are working hard to make it in the same industry. Meet Mr. Handsome, He's really good at what he does, VERY good at what he does. Although this phone is still set to embarassment mode that has not stopped us from communicating. Before going too far or saying too much ill place his story on To Be Continued--

Well the time is...well it dosent matter, what matters is that it's the evening, which means that the day has passed. I'm sitting here alone, not lonely, just alone. I've had a pretty quiet day, had a few conversations on the phone. Checked email pretty much all day. Watched iCarly and Kennan & Kel and a lil bit of The Food Network today. Made me a very American chicken sandwhich with fries and some cold drink. Listened to music. Talked to Mr. Handsome throughout the day. My younger sister called me and we did a lil bit of catching up.

Did I leave anything out..

Oh yeah, the day that was susposed to be spent with Mr. Rico, that was promised to be spent enjoying one anothers company is the day I just described[above], which means that Mr. Rico did not come through. Once again!

My interest is fading

-au•ton•o•mous

when the workday is done: Good Morning

The time is now a little after 5:3o in the am. Today was a long day starting early in the morning, me sleeping well. I woke up on the right side of the bed and everything, all felt good until I tried to call my mother then T.Mobile slapped me right in the face with a phone services is disconnected recording...smh. Needless to say I was hella pissed. This has never happened to me, and this was not my fault, that makes it that much more irritating. Take a note folks, this is why you dont have anyone els on your line BUT YOU. && family are some of those people that you dont let on your line. They are the reason I cannot make outgoing calls until further notice-very embarassing.

Later on in the day a good good friend of mines invited me out to a nice dinner for her birthday. It was a very nice and intimate affair at the chinese bistro P.F. Chang's. Laughter and spring rolls, and can someone please tell me whats the difference between egg rolls and spring rolls? If its the obvious answer that one has egg in it and the other dosent im going to scream...lol. Our waitress Karyn was quite a character, take Angelina Jolie-Pitt's looks and the personality of a saturday morning cartoon character. She was so ditzy and funny, had us laughin all night-and not intentionally, she was just really that funny. If you ever get to P.F. Chang's please request Karyn and you'll see why.

After dinner was over and the long ass highway ride[that wouldve been much shorter had we've just taken i75 like I suggested but im over it...]. I got a call to come up to Blake's so that I could roll on the floor laughing my ass off. && when i reached Blake's..boy did I laugh. There were so many fools and drag queens performing like you wouldnt believe...lol. I took a small cup of vodka and coke and the fun was amplified[Now in case i havent stated it already, I am not a drinker or smoker, i can hold my liquor but the instances where i drink are few and far between] We did meet a really cool guy though. He lives in Macon and graduated from my University. He impressed me with his moves on the dance floor. && I have to admit it's only because of the steriotype that white men have no rythm-oh yeah he was white.

Honestly ALOT happened at Blake's as well as the last few days since ive posted. In short-im sure there're things im going to skip over and possibly touch on in a later post. There was an unusually packed house tonight[unusual for me even though this is a new spot for me]. I've been working on the University work and getting financial aid moved around-major headache but should be worth it come graduation day. Mr. Rico and I have been doing some talking all has been pretty good, we both lead relatively hectic lives as it relates to spending quality time with one another-we're still learning each others schedules. We just got off of the phone during the start of this post and he's going to come and spend the day with me.

Not too much more to report, well there may be much more. im just a lil tired and the sun is playing peek-a-boo with my eyes, either that or the liquor was stronger than I thought it was.

Good Morning

-au•ton•o•mous

A Social Affair: when the workday is done

Last night was a good one indeed. I attended a social event, artisit of all types piled into the venue. It was nothing short of fantastic. I was impressed by all the work that adorned the walls and the different types of artist that came out-I was expecting only a specific type[shame on me right]. We[two of THE flyest socialites, and I] strolled in a lil later than expected. Atlantas weather must've been upset with everyone yesterday. The entire day was gloomy, with rain and dark clouds and the night got worst before it got better. Reguardless of that there was a wonderful turn out. I've been really good at spotting the real vs. the fake when it comes to talent-huh? you ask. Well last night, while lounging in VIP, we were approached by this very flamboyant woman. She was giving us this grand story of plans for the future and projects in the works, all the while im minding my own, getting into the live music. Everything she was trying to sell me on initially sounded alright in the beginning...UNTIL she continued to talk.

I started picking apart her stories, just in normal questions. The one thing that really stood out to me with her was all of the things she claimed to have been doing with this website and these playlist and this trend forcasting etc. etc. blah. blah blah. etc. So I asked her what was her url. She paused breifly then ignored my question and continued with the conversation. Now it was not my intent to embarass her, I was merely looking for some clarity, some understanding if you will. I feel that if you are actually living behind your words and arent lying then there should be no problem. Well I proceeded to ask more in depth questions about her plans. I simply asked her "Well what is your domain name"-same question as earlier just worded differently. && she tells me, with this look of disgust on her face, "Im just to busy to do all that right now" MIND YOU, a domain name is rougly between 10 and 12 dollars, and can be purchased and set up on an average of 10minutes. & in this day and age there're many ppl with blogs and twice as many with websites. So I, seeing what i'd done-embarassing her in front of everyone [purely accidental], ask her does she have a card then. Well she pulls out her business card and I notice that all that appears on her card is: one singular word-nightlife and her myspace url.
It took everything in my not to burst out in laughter.

You're so busy that you cannot take out 10 dollars and 10 minutes of your life to purchase an actual website but you can order business cards. that have nothing but a myspace url printed on them. When she passed them out...smh I just about fell over where I stood. I had to remove myself from the sitiuation, there were too many other people who actually had priorities and talent in order. I spent the rest of the night making small talk and exchanging contact information. All went well.

Sleep came about: 4:3o-ish [am.]

-au•ton•o•mous